Jersey Girl Gone Crazy!

There isn't much in life I need aside from Family, friends, my Boyfriend and my pets and of course a few good laughs.. I don't take life to seriously I laugh at inappropriate moments, and make jokes when really there shouldn't be one. I am honest, to honest some may say I never sugar coat anything, I am my own worst critic, and a great person to go to for advice, when I set my mind to something, I can and WILL achieve it. I am gutsy, and chicken shit at the exact same time, I have asthma and I smoke, I love to sing just not in public, I love to laugh and make others laugh, I love sports, but never play anymore, I love to go out, but love staying home more, shopping is a passion, but I never can go to do it. I am a ragging bitch with the largest heart. I people watch, but if someone watches me, it pisses me off. I was the "scary girl" in high school, most feared me, including some of the teachers lol, I had no problem speaking my mind, and it landed me in a bunch of trouble, school was never for me, I felt confined and limited, I almost dropped out, and I cant remember who convinced me not to I think I would have done just fine if I had, I hated school, yet I am rather intelligent, and know the importance of it, just don't put numbers in front me, you'll confuse me. I love science and history (so long as no animals are being hurt).

I have passion, in everything I do, even just a common every day conversation. I love to debate, another trait I had in high school, and debated more than one teacher, and proved more than one wrong. There is not many people in this world I can honestly say I am "afraid" of, there was one person I truly feared, and once I got over it, i vowed to never allow a single person to ever make me feel that way again, and I haven't! well... except clowns, those fuckers are creepy. I demand respect, and if you deserve it, you will always get it from me. I am an excellent judge of character, and my first impression is usually correct (I thank my mother for this). When I dream, that dream usually comes true, or something close, its rather creepy.

My father died when I was 13, but my step father, is anything but STEP he IS my Dad, and one of my best friends whom I can tell anything in the world too, we are to much a like, that at times we clash, but I love him.

I am liberal, extremely liberal. I also don't follow religion, and have been told time and time again that I am going to hell because of this, that's all well and good, but because you judge me... I'll see you there ;).I am forgiving, but can hold a grudge like it is my job. I am loyal, dependable, with values. I am picky about the company I keep, and have friends of all walks of life.

I am ADHD, with a mild case of OCD, I cant ever concentrate, and am highly impulsive, I don't have a "filter" which more than likely could account for my brutal honesty. I should be medicated, but I don't have insurance, and I don't really like how I feel drugged, possibly one day. I am allergic to life, seriously... aside from food, I dont think there is much I am not allergic to, including cats and dogs, and I have one dog, and 5 cats...I am also allergic to the cold.. no really... Cold Urticaria, google it, I am so allergic to it, that going to the store and buying a gallon of milk, burns my hands, eating ice cream is at times a challenge, and typically I can not go into water that is anything less than 70 - 75 degrees, I had one instance where I did, broke out in hives, and with my body trying to heat me up and the sun, I passed out, could have very possibly went into shock if I had stayed in the water any longer... good times.

I have seen death, I have had more than my share of loss (over 20 of them), death scares the living shit out of me, life drives me insane, but Id like to keep living it.

I am a walking talking Contradiction, and I couldn't picture myself being any other way... well... maybe 30lbs lighter, with bigger boobs.. but nobody is perfect!

Christmas, can really make someone go from broke to poor in the matter of moments.

I put shopping off, and off, and off, because as much as I love to shop, I hate crowds, and a lot of what I wanted to buy I needed to do it in person, so online shopping was going to be a hassel. So there I went, to TJ Maxx, Kohls, the mall (twice), Sports Ath., Best Buy, Target (twice). I didnt notice how much I spent until I looked at my wallet! and I WASNT EVEN DONE! oy vey! so I held off until the next day, 4 hours later, and i came home, still forgetting something. I swear it was easier when I lived 500 miles away from family, I am not sure why, but it was.

I love to wrap gifts, I love to give gifts, I just hate BUYING them. It's all crazy.

So I still have to go out there, and get a new nail clipper for my dog, because I got a new car and I dont want his hair in there just yet, so I get to try to put him through the torture of me doing it, I've gotten his quick once, and there was blood, and yelping EVERY WHERE! it scared us both for life but it needs to be done, I am very tired of getting butcherd every time I walk in the door. and I need a gift bag, how do i forget that!? I dont know, but alas, i did.

the biggest cat in this house, has taken a liking to a gift box, he's 30lb cat, and the box is for a pair of shoes, it's really not working for him, but he;s determined, and just gave me a look as if to say "Hey, never seen a fat man in a speedo? same thing, deal with it"

oh the craziness that is my house....

I know times are hard lately, with everything being so expensive we can barely stand it. You have to buy gifts for all your loved ones, possibly even some you don't care so much for... but there is a gift that you can give some one, that would only cost money if you wanted it to....

Reach out to someone, Tis the season after all right? Take a stand... "Stand for something or fall for anything" I have so many things i Stand for..

• Animal rights
• Childrens rights
• Breast Cancer Awareness
• PTSD Awareness

The biggest being the PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder)... one of the biggest things you can do this holiday season, is take 20 minutes, and write a letter to a soldier, you dont have to agree with the war, I don't but anything you're going through trust me when I say, they feel worse. If you want to send a care package by all means, Donate to the USO, help some one you don't know, they dont know you and they are protecting you daily, they easily could die tomorrow, their days are not promised, so show them that someone cares, even if they don't know you for adam, it helps.

Sign up to be a big brother or sister, trust me these kids could need it now a day.

Send money or food to a respectable animal shelter, or adopt a pet from one, dont adopt from a breeder, these dogs and cats in shelters are in their own war, and could die tomorrow, because no one was willing to give them a forever home. Or become a volunteer at a shelter.

Buy a pink ribbon, and wear it with pride, or ANY ribbon! you dont know who you could walk past.. they could be a survivor, or currently a victim, and by you showing support, makes them want to fight another day.

do something! its the best gift you could give, you'll feel good, and you can make a perfectly good stranger happy, even just for 5 minutes, you never know you can make a life time friend out of it.

Take a Stand.. care about something, and do something to change it...or atleast try... if no one ever TRIED nothing would ever change.

If you've never been to the Popcorn Park Zoo, I suggest you go. It's one of those places you'd never know exsisted unless you know some one whoes gone, it's tucked away behind trees, the sign is small, and unless your really looking for it, you will go right passed it.

PPZ (popcorn park zoo) is located in Forked River, New Jersey it was established in 1977 as a refuge for wildlife, exotic and farm animals that were abused, ill, injured, handicapped, elderly or exploited. Each animal faced a questionable future at best.

Located on 7 acres in Jersey's pine lands, filled with many different kinds of animals, offers an environment of safety, wonderful care, and peace to its residents, a diverse array of animals unfortunate enough to need a rescue, but lucky enough to wind up here.

There are four tigers that have taken up residence, their home before was in Texas, and they came to PPZ thin, malnourished and homeless. Two of the wonderful tigers Dante and Gina had been raised to be slaughtered in a canned hunt. Now they share a compound with rocks, trees, brush, and a waterfall.

Two Belgian draft horses, left a life of starvation, and now live happily at the PPZ. Also a fairly new arrival Princess the camel!

A monkey house shelters macaques, capuchins, rhesus monkeys and more, while the reptile house features caimen, snakes, iguanas, tortoises, and turtles.

A black bear, wallabies, bobcats, cougars, foxes, a llama, sheep, goats, muntjacks, pigs, emus, rheas, and manyother animals call Popcorn Park home today.

Every single animal in the zoo, has a name and it's own unique story, of abuse, betrayal, and just down right being scared, but now they have a home, where people care about them day to day, where they are loved, and fed and help bring joy to other peoples lives. You can donate money to the zoo, so that they can continue doing what they do best, RESCUE! It's a place to restore faith in humanity, to remind you that a little kindness goes a long way.

Air popped popcorn can be purchased to feed the aniamals! Admission to the park is extremely cheap, and all goes directly to the animals.

Adults - $5.00 Children under 12 - $3.00 Kids 3 and under -  FREE Seniors - $4.00

They are open 11am to 5pm every day, year round, except for holidays, when the Zoo closes at 2pm.

The PPZ is also a full service Humane Society, and right next door is a shelter for cats and dogs to be adopted, with complete medical facility!

If you haven't been to the park, I really suggest you go, bring your check book, after wards you will want to make a donation, or foster one of the many animals they have there. You will feel better for going, because not only will you see so many animals extremely up close, but your admission cost, goes to the helping of so many animals, whoes fate would have been less then pretty had it not been for the people at the popcorn park zoo!

Humane Way at Lacey Road PO Box 43 Forked River, NJ 08731 (609) 693-1900

awsome...

That about sums it up. Ever get the feeling you aren't alone? Well I do on a daily basis, my doctor told me, it was a mild case of paranoia, (this was about 3 years ago) I personally think I am mildly insane, although I just might not be alone. Ever talk to yourself? Ever ANSWER yourself? I do often, I did it today, while in WaWa, all I was there for was to buy some Ice Tea, so there I am standing in front of the fridge thingy, looking for Lemon ice tea, and for some reason I cant seem to find it, when I notice I am in engaged in a fairly good conversation with myself.... talking mostly about all of the new different kinds of ice tea WaWa now has to offer, when I was rudely inturupted by a very strange looking man, who had the nerve to ask me if I was "okay". What? I don't LOOK ok? is there something on my face?... I Stared at him blankly like HE was the moron, and grabbed my ice tea, which had been staring me in the face for the better of 5 minutes, and paid and left, got in my car and asked myself

"why DO you talk to yourself?" I still havent fully answerd this question yet, but I figured at some point I'd figure it out, so I drove home...

I am cleaning my kitchen, when I notice I am doing it AGAIN! only this time, I've been doing it for about 30mins, and I was telling myself that I didnt want to clean, and coaching myself on sayin "yes you do, just get it done, it wont take to long you ass, just fuckin do it!"

I decided the JUST DO IT motto really only worked for Nike, and I sat down on  my couch. Looked around and realized... I had done nothing in the 30 mins I thought I was cleaning... But my dog had a new chewy, and the cats were fighting, and there I was, sitting on the couch with a sprite, and the remote... change the sprite to a beer, and I am my father!...

I havent figured out this talking to ones self yet, Ive heard if you talk to yourself your normal, but if you answer yourself your crazy, or a genius, I dont really think I am either I know I am ADHD and I have the attention span of a goldfish, unless its something I really WANT to be doing....And I thought maube blogging would help in the motivation, how I dont know concidering I am still sitting on my couch, just with the lap top in my lap, dog squished next to me, in a chair...I mean everyone is slightly insane in their own quirky way, and thats what we call it, "quirks", its not quirks its insanity, just a mild case of insanity. And my ADHD gives me the excuse to say "oh sorry, I am ADHD" and people look at me with sympathy, like these dreaded disease is going to cause me to cumbust by mindinight. idiots.

So I talk to myself, so I have a voice in my head, and at times it does drive me crazy, but usually, its just there to keep me from loneliness I suppose. So for now on, my "voice" in my head will be refered to as Bubba the talking brain cell. You cant hear him, but I assure you, he doesnt like the way you've widended your eyes, and dropped your jaw, in the "HOLY SHIT SHE IS CRAZY" expression you have going on! So be kind and remove it, before bubba gets offended 

So it was brought to my attention that, this is a "must share", so I guess I MUST share....

This is dating back a few years ago... I was driving to go pick up my sister from work, which was a good 45mins away from where I lived, I was already running a little late, because frankly I was uber lazy and didn't want to move....Soooo I am driving... I get about 10 mins away from my HOUSE and I get pulled over, first thought "FOR FUCKING WHAT?!" second thought "shit, wheres my insurance!"

Cop comes up to my window "liseance, and registration, and insurance".....

check..check...aaaannnddd check.. phew....

"one second miss" and he walks back to his car, and im left to sit there wondering what in the HELL is going on...so I turn on the radio, and listen, bopping along to the music, he comes back..

"Miss I have to ask you to step out of the car"

PANIC! "FOR WHAT?!?!?!" I ask, highly irritated...

"MISS just step OUT of the car!"

I do...

And the bastard HAND CUFFS ME!

I ask him WHY I have been pulled over... his answer

"your car matches the discription of a local drug dealer"

OF A LOCAL WHAT?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! craaaaaaaaaap!

"oh" i said...."And how do you know a local drug dealer has THIS car?"

"A teacher saw the car, and gave in the discription"

"oh" i responded....

"Miss I have to ask you if I can search your car"

"WEELLLLLLLLLLLLL I dont think I have a choice here huh? go ahead" I say....

"Miss, can I open your trunk?"

"umm... sure?!" I answer.

"Miss what is all this?"

"What? I live out of my car, and I worked at a tanning salon, why?" I asked REALLY annoyed...

"Just wondering.."

I ask him "So did this "teacher" get a chance to look at my liseance plate?"

"Miss, thats not important"

"What the fuck do you mean thats NOT important?... dude can you hand me my ciggarettes?"

" I have to check them first.." he snaps back

"WHATEVER!" i snap right back!

I get my Cigg, standing on the side of an uber busy road, hand cuffed, pissed off, LATE to get my sister with this ass hat searching my car...

now according to him at this time, i was distruptive, and uncooropotive, so he calls for BACK UP! BACK UP PEOPLE! I AM ALL OF 5'3" and at the time, 135lbs MAYBE!

So not one but TWO other cars pull up, I hear them over there chatting, while I am SCREAMING at them that I am going to have them FIRED, and I am going to SUE their asses, when I hear

"Um... thats the wrong car... thats not our guy"

GUY! DID HE JUST SAY GUYYYYYYYYY!??????????

So I YELL!

"WHAT THE FUCK YOU MEAN GUY?! YOU MEAN YOU FUCKED THAT UP? NOT ONLY DID MY PLATE NOT MATCH,  BUT YOUR LOOKING FOR A GUY, I OBVIOUSLY AM NOT A GUY" (looking down at my BOOBS!)

I get every apology in the WORLD for the 2 other cops, but the asswipe who pulled me over.. NOTHING!

So i get UNCUFFED and "released" and told to "drive carefully"

I was to enraged, to even think about filing anything, even though I easily could have had mister bone head fired in a moment...

So i get in my car, pissed to hell, and SQUEAL off, it was more of a "I dare you to pull me over again" move, but no one did... so off I went, got my sister, came home...and now will forever have the story of the "case of mistaken identity".. or more like GENDER!

Of all the nerve!

Shortly after I posted my E-mail, I had gotten an E-mail from someone, asking me how I feel about Obama, now I am unsure why this person even gives a rats ass, what I think, but hey, why not... I dont talk politics, and I won't here. But I can say how I feel about the PERSON! not their political views...

President Elect Obama, I feel like is a good man. He may not be the most "expierenced" but if the recent past has taught us anything, expierence really hasnt helped us any. And McCaine, is just an idiot... you dont agree with me huh? PALIN. thats the only reason I should have to give you as to why I think he is an idiot! MAVRICK!

Yes, Obama is a man of color, but as my Boyfriend says "he is a hybrid at best". People hate him for his color, or his name, or both. And in this day and age, I would have hoped that those people, would have been thrown in a river by now. Whats in a name? not much. I dont think he is our greatest choice, personally I would have loved for Hilary to have been in there, but if she can't then TEAM OBAMA all the way! I think this country needs a change, and what better of a change then a man of color! a women of color would have been clutch, but hey beggers cant be choosey I suppose. I dont think anyone can make this country any worse than it is right now, although if McCaine would have won, Id be living in Canada right now ay!

A person is a person, some better than others, but still a person. I think he is a good guy, he has good morales, good ideas, and a good family man. I dont have to agree with everything he says, to like him as a person, and honestly I want a person as president, that I feel like I can sit down and really talk to them. He's a peoples person, he doesnt give that "I am better than you" vibe. He's a great speaker (yeah yeah so was Hitler...). His wife annoyed the hell out of me, in the start, but she's grown on me if only for the fact that the woman can dress her ass off!!!! Not to forget his daughters are ADORABLE! (any word on what kind of puppy they are getting?, because I have 2 cats in need of a home  )

Times are changing, and I say, change with us, or get out!!!!! Plus people, Obama's can dance!! have you seen it? he can shake his groove thaaang!

Now I know there are millions of parents out there going through with their children... But here is my question to all of you....

     Do any of you have a full grown adult (now when I say adult i mean 30 or older) itching to play video games? My boyfriend who is about to be 30, is a full on ADDICT to SoCom now I never could in 2 years grasp why he feels the need to play in a pretend world for HOURS (and I truly mean HOURS) killing other pretend people, but they arent totally pretend, side bar: for all those who have no idea what SoCOM is, here is the run down, It is a virtual game, where you can play on PlayStation (now a days perferably playstaion 3) and make "clans" and go into a room, with your "socom friends" or people you dont know and have a war, with other people, online. (its like a computer game but played on the TV) they have a microphone (like a blue tooth) so they can talk to eachother, and they have a war, blood is shed, screams are heard, and gun fire rings through your house, it's rather disturbing, but boys will be boys eh?

So my boyfriend comes home work, charges his blue tooth, eats dinner, and sits his ass on the couch from about 6 until 10pm sometimes 11, and plays, and if he doesnt have work the next morning, even later, he has been known to play 12 hours straight, seriously.. it's annoying, especially if I have something to say, it's already hard enough to get the male gender to fully listen to anything you have to say, but add this lovely distraction and your screwd, its seriously worse than football, seriously. 

I will never understand this, and more often than not, he is playing with a bunch of damn teenage kids, and sometimes YOUNGER and he feels all special when he "kills" one of them, and I just look at him and say "toolbag" because he is, i love him, but lets face it he plays war games in his very late 20's.

He is playing right bow, and seriously he's pissing me off haha.

Winter has to be one of the dumber seasons, we have to be forced to go through... And I am aware that some of you are blessed enough to have warmer weather through out the year, and to you I say... bite me 

Now I have so many reasons for hating this uber retarted season, but lets start off with this.... the holiday season: Um.... Shit is to expensive to have to spend more money on a bunch of people you may or may not even like, and than having to be forced to spend a certain ammount of time with these people. Typically its a boring endevour, and your checking your watch ever 10 minutes, just counting down to when you can say your 10 thousand good byes, pack you, your shit, and if you have one, your family into your car, and drive your ass home, only to un pack everything you just packed into the car, get inside, and finally BREATHE!

Next up: ITS COLD! I am sorry but layers suck, its more laundry, makes you feel fatter,(or is this just me?) and it makes it harder to move! not to mention going out there makes your nose run so badly you might as well stick a box of puffs up there and call it a god damn day. Plus you get chilled to the bone and its almost impossible to warm up.

THERE IS NOTHING TO DOOOOOO! NADA in the damn winter, what is there do? go to the movies, yeah I will pass. First you pay out the ass, to some pimple faced, teenager who can barely make change (if you even pay in cash), then pop corn, whats the point??? and candy? WOW! you might as well just rip off you arm and throw up on the counter. The seating, ahh the options.... sit next to a bunch of teenage girls who don't shut up, teenage boys who don't shut up or a mix of the two.. who you guessed it, dont shut up. OR you can sit next to the couple who never stops giggeling or touching, or kissing, and at this point you might as well watch them, atleast then you would see some action. So what else is there to do? Sit home? yawn. Shop? hi, depression, meet my emtpy wallet!

Snow, I hate snow, sure its pretty the first time around, but when your under FEET of snow, its really just annoying, yeah sure you get out of work, but then your losing money, and your stuck home bored out of your god damn mind, playing checkers. fuck! then the shit melts and the roads are slick or there are pot holes because god forbid these ass whipes can plow a road with out ripping it to god damn shreds, so not only are you looking out for black ice (can you actually do that?), watching for the asshole in front of your to slam on his breaks because you know your on ice, and your IBS breaks really arent going to stop you in time, and now, pot holes, because really does a flat tire sound appealing while your in a giant out door freezer? SUUUURE the triple A Guy could be good looking, but do you really want to risk it? I dont.

Now my topper, I am ALLERGIC TO THE COLD! seriously, Cold Uticara google it. I break out in unbelievably itchy hives, my skin starts to get hotter than hell, and possibly could go into shock, so if I want to survive the season, I have to BUNDLE UP! which as I stated above I hate, and pretty much just stay in side, which is gay in its own right.

So in conclusion, Winter sucks a fat one, and all of those who don't agree, feel free to sit on it...

So here is what I say to you Mister Winter :