Jersey Girl Gone Crazy!

There isn't much in life I need aside from Family, friends, my Boyfriend and my pets and of course a few good laughs.. I don't take life to seriously I laugh at inappropriate moments, and make jokes when really there shouldn't be one. I am honest, to honest some may say I never sugar coat anything, I am my own worst critic, and a great person to go to for advice, when I set my mind to something, I can and WILL achieve it. I am gutsy, and chicken shit at the exact same time, I have asthma and I smoke, I love to sing just not in public, I love to laugh and make others laugh, I love sports, but never play anymore, I love to go out, but love staying home more, shopping is a passion, but I never can go to do it. I am a ragging bitch with the largest heart. I people watch, but if someone watches me, it pisses me off. I was the "scary girl" in high school, most feared me, including some of the teachers lol, I had no problem speaking my mind, and it landed me in a bunch of trouble, school was never for me, I felt confined and limited, I almost dropped out, and I cant remember who convinced me not to I think I would have done just fine if I had, I hated school, yet I am rather intelligent, and know the importance of it, just don't put numbers in front me, you'll confuse me. I love science and history (so long as no animals are being hurt).

I have passion, in everything I do, even just a common every day conversation. I love to debate, another trait I had in high school, and debated more than one teacher, and proved more than one wrong. There is not many people in this world I can honestly say I am "afraid" of, there was one person I truly feared, and once I got over it, i vowed to never allow a single person to ever make me feel that way again, and I haven't! well... except clowns, those fuckers are creepy. I demand respect, and if you deserve it, you will always get it from me. I am an excellent judge of character, and my first impression is usually correct (I thank my mother for this). When I dream, that dream usually comes true, or something close, its rather creepy.

My father died when I was 13, but my step father, is anything but STEP he IS my Dad, and one of my best friends whom I can tell anything in the world too, we are to much a like, that at times we clash, but I love him.

I am liberal, extremely liberal. I also don't follow religion, and have been told time and time again that I am going to hell because of this, that's all well and good, but because you judge me... I'll see you there ;).I am forgiving, but can hold a grudge like it is my job. I am loyal, dependable, with values. I am picky about the company I keep, and have friends of all walks of life.

I am ADHD, with a mild case of OCD, I cant ever concentrate, and am highly impulsive, I don't have a "filter" which more than likely could account for my brutal honesty. I should be medicated, but I don't have insurance, and I don't really like how I feel drugged, possibly one day. I am allergic to life, seriously... aside from food, I dont think there is much I am not allergic to, including cats and dogs, and I have one dog, and 5 cats...I am also allergic to the cold.. no really... Cold Urticaria, google it, I am so allergic to it, that going to the store and buying a gallon of milk, burns my hands, eating ice cream is at times a challenge, and typically I can not go into water that is anything less than 70 - 75 degrees, I had one instance where I did, broke out in hives, and with my body trying to heat me up and the sun, I passed out, could have very possibly went into shock if I had stayed in the water any longer... good times.

I have seen death, I have had more than my share of loss (over 20 of them), death scares the living shit out of me, life drives me insane, but Id like to keep living it.

I am a walking talking Contradiction, and I couldn't picture myself being any other way... well... maybe 30lbs lighter, with bigger boobs.. but nobody is perfect!