Jersey Girl Gone Crazy!

That about sums it up. Ever get the feeling you aren't alone? Well I do on a daily basis, my doctor told me, it was a mild case of paranoia, (this was about 3 years ago) I personally think I am mildly insane, although I just might not be alone. Ever talk to yourself? Ever ANSWER yourself? I do often, I did it today, while in WaWa, all I was there for was to buy some Ice Tea, so there I am standing in front of the fridge thingy, looking for Lemon ice tea, and for some reason I cant seem to find it, when I notice I am in engaged in a fairly good conversation with myself.... talking mostly about all of the new different kinds of ice tea WaWa now has to offer, when I was rudely inturupted by a very strange looking man, who had the nerve to ask me if I was "okay". What? I don't LOOK ok? is there something on my face?... I Stared at him blankly like HE was the moron, and grabbed my ice tea, which had been staring me in the face for the better of 5 minutes, and paid and left, got in my car and asked myself

"why DO you talk to yourself?" I still havent fully answerd this question yet, but I figured at some point I'd figure it out, so I drove home...

I am cleaning my kitchen, when I notice I am doing it AGAIN! only this time, I've been doing it for about 30mins, and I was telling myself that I didnt want to clean, and coaching myself on sayin "yes you do, just get it done, it wont take to long you ass, just fuckin do it!"

I decided the JUST DO IT motto really only worked for Nike, and I sat down on  my couch. Looked around and realized... I had done nothing in the 30 mins I thought I was cleaning... But my dog had a new chewy, and the cats were fighting, and there I was, sitting on the couch with a sprite, and the remote... change the sprite to a beer, and I am my father!...

I havent figured out this talking to ones self yet, Ive heard if you talk to yourself your normal, but if you answer yourself your crazy, or a genius, I dont really think I am either I know I am ADHD and I have the attention span of a goldfish, unless its something I really WANT to be doing....And I thought maube blogging would help in the motivation, how I dont know concidering I am still sitting on my couch, just with the lap top in my lap, dog squished next to me, in a chair...I mean everyone is slightly insane in their own quirky way, and thats what we call it, "quirks", its not quirks its insanity, just a mild case of insanity. And my ADHD gives me the excuse to say "oh sorry, I am ADHD" and people look at me with sympathy, like these dreaded disease is going to cause me to cumbust by mindinight. idiots.

So I talk to myself, so I have a voice in my head, and at times it does drive me crazy, but usually, its just there to keep me from loneliness I suppose. So for now on, my "voice" in my head will be refered to as Bubba the talking brain cell. You cant hear him, but I assure you, he doesnt like the way you've widended your eyes, and dropped your jaw, in the "HOLY SHIT SHE IS CRAZY" expression you have going on! So be kind and remove it, before bubba gets offended